generic heading, particular apologies

I write so infrequently that, every time I log on to post something, there is a spate of updates to perform on the site before I can continue. This newest update of WordPress revealed upon completion a banner announcing all of the new and improved features; it included on this banner the claim that Code Is Poetry, which seems rather dubious. I will have to think about it.

As always, at the start of another new year I look at my writing habits and wish they were different. I have not been recording much besides the monthly updates of the littlest of the children. To be honest, I have felt muzzled for a few years now. Where exactly this comes from, I’m not sure, but there has been an anxiety borne of insecurity and the persistent thought that I both don’t have the right to talk about things and no one would care what I said if I did. These thoughts are pervasive and very successful at deterring me from writing here as I once did.

I have realized, however, that probably the biggest regret I have of these last few years is the fact I haven’t been writing things down. And regret being stronger than anxiety, I will just have to try harder to push through it–that is, try harder to take the muzzle off.

I generally despise blog posts dedicated to apologizing for not writing very frequently, but here is my explanation, and I had to get it out before I could continue.